Return and Healing

RETURN DATE

The past few days have been interesting. On Tuesday, Adam’s boss- seemingly out of nowhere- said that he may want Adam (and us) to go home mid-June, so that Adam could give presentations to accounts in the U.S. He and I were cautious about getting our hopes up for an early return, since things constantly change at his work. Even so, we were still excited, and against all common sense, I started to mentally plan for it. We did not tell the girls however, because that would be a crushing disappointment for them if they thought they were going home and things fell through.

Later that night, I started to feel guilty about that June return date; I’ve had the feeling for several months now that our purpose for being here would come to fruition in June. I’ve shared this with friends as well, so when I e-mailed some friends about the situation, my friend Michelle thought perhaps this was what was going to happen in June. I tried to convince myself that maybe she was right, but deep down I knew I was kidding myself. I’ve felt that it is when God is supposed to show us why we’re here, not take us out of here. I felt like I was taking things into my own hands and forcing God’s hand. I tried to push aside the feelings of guilt, because hey- I get to see my dog again, and the girls get to have a life outside of these four walls again. Even through my many mental justifications, I still felt irritable and uneasy, so I prayed that we would surrender to God’s timing and not our own so that we would not miss the blessing.

So here we are today- Adam’s boss is out of town today, but he sent an e-mail this morning saying that he was now thinking end of June/mid-July as our return date. Adam will talk with him tomorrow to see what the future business plans are and what his boss thinks is needed. Adam made a great point about this experience- here I’ve been talking for months about this feeling of God revealing his plans in June, yet here we were, more than willing to leave in the middle of June.

We both feel peace about the new time frame, which is actually earlier than the original late-July/early-August plan. I’d be lying if I didn’t say that we aren’t disappointed, though. I’m praying that God will provide things to keep me and the girls occupied over the next several weeks, and that we all finish the race with joy, patience, and endurance.

HEALING

It seems like a visit to India is not complete unless we witness supernatural healing. The last time we were here, God worked through Adam at Pastor Daniel’s church to heal our driver’s bad back and a lady of asthma. As many of our friends know, I started getting a toothache a few weeks ago. It was in a tooth with a crown, which spells ‘root canal’. The idea of getting a root canal here was, shall we say, less than appealing. Two weeks ago at church, a guest pastor talked about healing. Long story short, he had Adam pray healing over me for my tooth. That day, I struggled because I wanted to believe that I was healed, but I still felt pain. I wrestled with the whole issue of ‘is it God’s will for me to be healed, or is it His will that I’m not, or is it that I just don’t have enough faith?’ Apparently it was His will that I was healed because the next day the pain was way less and now it is entirely gone.

Thanks again to everyone that is keeping us in prayer. It has really made a huge difference. We can feel God’s covering.

One last note- Adam will be preaching at our church this Sunday, and Hailey is going to sing a solo song acappella!